Stop! Halt! Danger!
You almost wasted precious time, dozens of minutes from your life were almost spent doing something YOU DON'T WANNA DO, look at the table, it represents time you have left. You have enough of it, but just enough, if you waste more you might miss out on your dreams.
Strong, primal impulses that you developed over years of chasing after empty calories of illusory satisfaction (analogous to nicotine addiction but online), push you towards something you don't want to do, don't obey them!
Below you listed out things you actually want to do, every single time after fulfilling those bogus needs that stem from baseless feelings of lack, you always think about your real goals, but you want to pursue them less, because by the absurd way of the human mind works, this feeling of lack can be fulfilled by both hard valuable work, as well as something simple, pointless and thoughtless.
Chinese (中文)
Beautiful and free-flowing but also a very alien language. You will bingewatch MLP:FiM with the Chinese dub, all 9 seasons, shortly after your 25th birthday, around May 2027. To understand what those pastel horses are saying and have a lot of fun you need to get to the HSK4 level.
You can do it, however you need to spend a lot more time with the language both flashcards and immersion practice. For your first forte in immersion practice you chose the way of LittleFox Chinese and Assimil Chinese with Ease.
If everything goes swimmingly you will run out of things those resources can teach you, but the Chinese have their own internet and Sentence Mining BilliBilli will be even more fun and the ways to learn will never ever run out.
Molecular Biology
You are fully aware how mindbogglingly marvelous biology is.
The sheer potential of what nature evolved into over those millions of years is immense, you see a slim chance, a shot at extending nature in a way that would allow for general flow between information and reality, keeping full capacity for that system to create a copy of itself, you are willing to give 101% to make that dream into reality.
Sekai wo kakumei suru chikara wo!
(Grant me the power to revolutionize the world!)
You lack knowledge, knowledge to be synthesized and examined with interesting questions, there is a single way to work towards that knowledge and it's constant contact with it.
Get to reading, for now Molecular Biology of the Cell, and PippeteJockey's genomics course are what you will learn stuff from.
Mathematics and CS
Mathematics is beautiful, you are not great at it, but you want to change it. You feel the lack mathematics in your problem solving skills.
Your goal is understanding the basics of linear algebra, to understand the course material you also ought to retake single and multi-variable calculus.
Despite your constant exposure to computers, you using them quite clumsily, without any finesse, you want to open yourself up to experimenting with computers more, but first you want to understand mathematics somewhat, you imagine it will yield better results if you do.
How capable modern computers are is one of the reasons why you want to learn mathematics after all.
Website
You think about blogging as a tool to motivate yourself to do more, learn more, create more, solve problems more. It was the idea behind starting this personal site, one of your biggest inspirations was mitxela with his beautiful site serving the purpose of documenting his projects.
If you have anything worthwhile to say, you finished a project you are proud of, or have something intriguing to write about, snap some photos, and open up
QOwnNotes to write about it and then Pulsar to make it beautiful with html and css.
